Saturday, May 8, 2010
Today will be full of necessary chores and errands that were delayed for various reasons this past week.
It will be a struggle to stay mindfully in the present and not give in to the temptation to bolt, which I am only just beginning to understand*. There are many ways to leave a boring or unsatisfying situation. As a writer who spends a lot of time in her head creating, I always thought this was a good thing. Actually, I am beginning to realize that it is an escape mechanism that keeps me out of touch with my own feelings and desires and away from experiencing my life fully.
Instead of retreating into my dream world, today I will find the fun in the mundane. I will concentrate on my interactions with my loved ones and the efficiency with which I dispatch things on my to-do list. I will feel the anxiety associated with having many demands on my time and I will feel how it dissipates with each chore completed.
(*This is part of what I am learning through the book Women Food and God by Geneen Roth which I just can't recommend enough.)