Thursday, April 29, 2010
Because I am nervous and scared about what the results will show (something new has gone wrong with my congenitally malformed foot) I know that it will be hard for me to maintain my sense of peace and mindfulness. Usually when I am in these situations, I start maniacally cracking jokes at my own expense, which leaves everyone laughing but me. I ease the tension of the situation for everyone but myself.
Today I will concentrate on staying focused and serene. I will try to understand the message my body is sending me with this pain. I will not let the events of the day set me back on my journey to live mindfully and with peace. I will not fall back on old coping habits (mindlessly eating, denying the pain) but I will try my hardest to stay entirely in the present.
And I will pray that whatever is discovered by this test will be something that can be fixed.
How do you greet stress and overwhelm? Do you feel frantic and shut out your inner voice that tells you to slow down, or do you arm yourself with inner peace and steadfastness?